I Need UR Recommendations!

12 April, 2009

I’m heading to the bookstore today evening

Would love to hear some suggestions on some good tiles.

My mind is in need of something to read. psychology, personal development, diary, business, spiritual topics. Women’s rights, or poetry, all would be fine. I guess I’m in the mood to read something related to psychology esp mood swings & personality disorders! Or most probably something on self-esteem & positive attitude. anything informative & enjoyable !


Any recommendations!??!!!!!!???

Hehe Tomorrow I’m going on a blind date !!! LOL

10 March, 2009

Following the tremendous failure encountered last week meeting a “horrible 3ares” (yuk i dont want to remember), i decided to go wild!!!

Khalasssssssss I totally gave up on the idea of finding a perfect match or Mr. Right :( so I made up my mind & concluded that waiting for ever is not an option at all.

I’m having a blind date tomorrooooooooooooooooow whohoooooooo…well I don’t know if I can call it a DATE but my friend has been deseperately trying to arrange a couple outings with the friend of her boy friend lol sounds complicated huh?4 of us will hang out & lets see what will happen

If by any chance the situation ended up like the cartoon above I would be still fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ...hope so lol .By the way shall I buy a souvenir or wut :P? and if yes, what shall i buy?

Anyways, today I’ll go shopping & then definitely will go to the saloon to get my nails done :D

I’ll try to ENJOY! Will keep me updated!

Salamzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Blabblaaaah...another day

26 January, 2009

I am so delighted to see my starvation plan working perfectly fine & beyond my expectation. Its almost the 9th day if I’m not mistaken. The resolution is like no chocolate, no coke, no fast food, no fattening stuff, no tea with milk along with drinking a lot of water, almost two litters per day!

Lately I have been so upset about my body & the way I look …I just want my sexy body back. I tried zillions of things....fitness centers, fat burning, appetite reducers but nothing worked since I lacked the determination & will…..food along with infrequent blogging were the only ways I used to manifest & express my depression & emotional status….

Hope I would be able to continue what I have started…. I have too….do I have another option?….for a change I’m thinking of changing my hair style & geting my eyebrow reshaped…looking for a tattoo artist too? If you know someone professional in dubai plz let me know..
I haven’t changed my hair color in 6 months …do you imagine! I just had some highlight three months ago …Actually I have tried various colors blond, red, & black ….now I’m looking for a new color…probably i might wait for another six months until I finish my masters ….finishing my degree would signal the start of a new chapter in my life so changing my look would be a must then!

Today I talked with my sister …I don’t know what to say but she sounded frustrated & said she doenst want to have anything to do with this family anymore! She had enough of listening to our problems….

I wish if you could know how much I love you my beloved sister ….sometimes I feel I love her more than my mother …she is my supporting back…I could never imagine my life without her ….she never let me down….was by my side since ever….i just love u more than anything in life…

Daaaaaaaah I’m sick of myself being tooooo emotional ………isn’t the right time to toughen my heart & get over my weaknesses

A good question!

I got to start studying ….

22 January, 2009

This semester I got some heavy subjects & honestly im afraid to screw up in Retail marketing Management!
I have got two projects & plenty of assignments for this damn course as if we are not full time employeeeeeeeeeees! For god’s sake we are not working for the government sector!! We are not that spoiled …..
Whats the hell! are we studying at Harvard….
For the individual project onlyyy, he wants secondary data, 5 interviews with retailers & 6 observational Examples! Get a life!! Who would have the time to do all of that!!

I feel sorry for my money wasted in doing my masters here….i could have studied at AUC or AUD without the imaginary figure we pay each semester….6 months & 9 days to go …..lately I have been nagging , whining, complaining a lot …right?
: )

I won't wish my self a peaceful weekend this time…an average one would be ok !!

Peace

If your religion does not change you, change your religion

21 January, 2009

**** If your religion does not change you, change your religion****

An inspiring quote I came across yesterday….its by Elbert Hubbard..
I have been thinking a lot about this sentence ….my sister threw some comments last night when she said you are not in need of us…nor do we …but remember that one day you will be asked about your deeds!!

Shall women compromise in the name of religion?
Shall I surrender submit ….accept the current situation & tolerate more shit because allah will punish me if I wanna go against the current flow!!! So surprising that she wants me to experience what she has gone through! Advocates of misery!

I’m just asking when can religion become a burden on Mankind!! So would you change your religion if it didn’t change you!

Unrelated ….inconsistent thoughts written while @ work

14 August, 2008

Fake world with frozen feelings…plastic faces…big lies….yellow smiles….black hatred…
I can no longer trust anybody …I can’t distinguish between who is honest & who is not…

My mood is not good today with all the money I spend to boost my swingy emotions….that proves that happiness stems from your brain, your attitude, your soul, & your heart

The day before my childish friend dragged me to Magic Planet @ Mall of the Emirates to play games!!!
I found it ridiculous & shameful… I was looking around myself all the time to see if anybody I know would me there! Its cool to go crazy & do things you usually don’t dare to commit!

She wanted to get our picture etched on a medal & I had to surrender to her wish especially that she will get back to her home town next week….i will definitely miss her non-stoppable madness with all the tons of the problems she has…she never stops laughing giggling jumping from here to there like a kido …sometimes I think about her & how she could survive with the endless troubles she has…she still manages to smile….weird life…or weird human beings…

CHRISTIAN OR NON CHRISTIAN

09 May, 2008

CHRISTIAN OR NON CHRISTIAN

If you are a frequent reader of my diary you would not be surprised to know how religion has been a problem for me when it comes to men & dating.


I don’t recall that I had ever fallen for a guy from the SAME RELIGION. All those whom we get attracted to each other ANE present a very PERFECT MATCH turn to be from a different RELIGION.

Hint: I’m picky & choosy in a way that its so very difficult to get attracted to man.

Surprisingly, my 1 zillion criteria are generally met by non muslims. I keep struggling to hold my feelings back, turn all their invitations down to get closer or give the relation a try.

Personally, I don’t get a damn about this issue. But culture & religion do. I come from a conservative background & I could jeopardize my life & safety if I ever thought of loving or marrying a Christian/Shi’i guy.

What triggled my post is a Chritian HOT HOT guy who saw me at work while meeting my boss. The partition was transparent & he was starring at me all the time; as claimed by my boss. To be honest with u I was extremely busy & didn’t notice that. But I still remember a sexy TALL BOLD guy ;)

The following day I went to his company to get some training & apparently he saw me leaving. When I get back to the office, my BOSS called me to his office & asked what the hell I have down at that company. I freaked out!

He was like what the hell I started getting calls even b4 u reaching ur office!
My blood got frozen! lol

MY BOSS ASKED ME WHAT PERFUME I WEAR! I WAS LIKE WHAT!

That guy who is in fact the regional director of the com in MENA, smelled the perfume & recognized the name of it! It was his fav perfume actually. I just passed for FEW SECONDS while approaching the elevator!

My boss is acting as a matcher now for his friend & gave me good feedback about the guy such as being so choosy as well in getting attracted to women in general.

Lets wait & see. God I know u r reading what I wrote & I would like to tell u something. I figured out that diversity of religion brought to our small world all the pain & wars.

I wish if religions don’t exist! I Wish if life was much easier & simpler. i really fed up


Will keep u posted anyways

02 May, 2008

I’m really tired. I know the solution is easy but I wish if I could change things unchangeable in my life. I fed up from instability. I wish if I could write everything on this wall. Knowing that somebody can read my thoughts upsets me & forbid me from writing what I want!

Instability
Insecurity

I want to settle down I want something guaranteed
Where am I going? I really made a decision that affected my career path…I’m way behind regarding my masters ….not able to communicate at all with the ppl I’m living with
Till when I have to tolerate the gap btw us…its so unbelievable to live with somebody for the sake of being obligatory

Your agenda & life should be programmed the way they want
You should eat, think, behave ,talk ,act ,wear, & walk the way they want
You should embrace their religion, thoughts, & tradition

I’m tired of acting to satisfy them & myself at the sometime

I wish if I could scream & let them know WHAT I M & WHAT I WANT TO BE ..

its my years thats flying by..its my youth .. Its my life…

I want to enforce my options my wants my plans for my life….i don’t want to compromise for nothing ….

Some ppl’s extistance might be a reason to move forward

Some ppl’s existabnce might be a reason to move backward
Disturbing existence

Enough ranting for today!

Quick Update- Noor Islamic Bank Part #12659820659898989

13 April, 2008

I just got a call from NIB’s Branch Manger after sending A VERY LOVELY E-MAIL

lol

He promised to solve the problem by today " INSHALA"

i hate when ppl say " INSHALA"...since three weeks i'm hearing this word

" INSHALA"
" INSHALA"
plzzzzzzzzzz have mercy on this WORD For God's Sake!!!


Lets see what will happen.

He better do so before I send a hot letter to 7 days & Emarate El Youm!!! I would love to tell the whole UAE about the worst bank in town!

08 April, 2008

Cliams cliams cliams ...a world full of cliams, based on claims...depending on claims....

thats what you would read on their website:

Why NIB
"Be it our people, our attitude or our philosophy and purpose. We are passionate about achievement, sincere about service, and caring about customers.
We are Noor Islamic Bank.
Our extraordinary dedication to you- our customer- , drives us to ensure that you always get the best of our highly evolved Islamic banking services. We are committed to setting benchmarks of excellence in our chosen field by delivering progressive Islamic Banking solutions.

We pride ourselves on our result-oriented culture, which is built on a customer-centric and service-assured platform. "


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After writing a trillion word e-mail to Noor Islamic Bank, I received the following:

Dear ______

First of all, thank you for your time to visit our website.

I would also like to apologize on behalf of Noor Islamic Bank for our short comings.

Your email was acknowledged and forwarded to the Management and concern department and will be recorded in our customer complaint tracking.

Constructive feedbacks such as yours are greatly valued.

Regards,

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any action from their side??? I doubt

06 April, 2008

I think I need a bloody hit on my head to wake up from the laziness phase I’m going through.

I sleeeeeeeeeeeeep a lot
Physical activity = 0
Mental activity= 0
I wake up late
I go to work late
My Tommy is getting bigger & bigger
I go to the saloon for the heck of wasting time & spending money
Appetite reducers didn’t work with me…I can’t close my mouth for more than 30 minz
These days I’m seeing nightmares on a daily basis
I have short temper most of the time
I don’t feel like doing anything at all
I’m hesitant in making decisions! Nothing matters to me..nothing is important anymore…every thing is 3adi
I put plans but I never make them true
I’m not concentrating on one thing at a time…I’m not concentrating at all
Sometimes I wonder what I want from life
I feel myself lost & confused
I’m just unhappy & I dunno why

I’m really worried & I’m scared as there are a lot of things coming up concerning my job that needs full dedication. I shouldn’t forget that I will register for two courses in May for my masters!


What the hell is happening to me? it is not me any more.
What do they call such symptoms? Is it depression?

29 March, 2008

Kalam Niswaaaaaan (my story with my sisters in law)- Part ONE

I foresee a potential bloody fight with my sisters-in-law these days : ) …isn’t lovely!

My 9 year old niece has a blabbing tongue exactly like her mother. Both of them have no clue how to use their brain cells in something useful except BLABLAAAAAABING.

(El mohim), the other day I asked my niece about what she wants to be in the future when she grows up. The shocking answer was that she doesn’t think of going to college. For her Grade 10 is more than enough!!!

So I spontaneously replied: “ you want to be like your mother & ur aunt (my other sister in law)???!!!!!!!!

Why on Earth a girl whose age is 9 would love to stay at home & get married? Of course becoz she doesn’t see some leading role models around her. She sees women who clean, cook, speak 132356598 words per second, & get pregnant every 9 months!!

I’m very concerned about the quality of the upcoming generations of my family!! I’m serious about it!

I’m so upset too coz my brothers don’t tend to choose intellectual educated ladies which will be reflected on their kids later on!

I have 2 sisters in law whose maximum level of education is a High School degree!!! Another one s a drop out!! My brother tried to convince her to continue but she refused!

(El mohim), my sisters in law protested! They spoke with my sister about what Hiba means when she said” you want to become like your mother & aunt”

My sister got embarrassed :)

I told her if they want an explanation, im ready!!

20 July, 2007

Blab blah – Fashit Khooli2 PART TWO

Its about 4:30 AM & I couldn’t go back to bed…Ahlan ahla bel sleep disorders
I’m struggling to set a budget for my department but they are a hopeless case( dan min teen w dan min 3ajeeeeeeeeeeen)
Too much work….ads…flyers…Articles to write & publish…lame advertising agencies…problems …problems…plans & I NEED 10 ppl to help me out!!!!!!!

On the other side I discovered that when it comes to men, I’m:
·So innocent
·Stupid in drawing conclusions
Nothing compared to my friends who ARE WELL EXPERIENCED IN SUCH ISSUES
· Very emotional
· Very passive
· What a man says to me he says it to ALL WOMEN HE KNOWS, SEES, TALKS TO, MEETS…………ETC

My emotional immune system is very weaaaaaaaaaaaaaak

01 June, 2007

Blab Blaaaaaaaaaaaah……..Fashit Kholi2

I need a drastic change
I wish f I could live next to my work
I'm fed up with traffic
I'm fed up with my bosses

Arabs don’t know how to work in a professional way
Girls at work r crappy
Last night I discovered that my friends are fake
Last night I discovered that I feel jealous!
Just wondering why I like the wrong men all the time. Either married with kids or from a different religion
I need to quit smoking
I need to stop making accidents
I need to stop eating junk food
I need to spend time with my parents
I need to socialize more
I need to see Dr. Sultana for consultation
I don’t know if I have to call Hazem
I fed up with my double standard life
I like my nail extension
I need to relax
I like the new look of my hair
I wish if rama could visit dubai this July
I need to enjoy life
I want to go shopping again & again
i’m wondering why ppl can’t guess where I’m from.
I’m wondering why ppl have heart attack when they know where I’m from
I need to save money
I need to cut some expenses
May be I have to call Danya
I will not pay the bill again!
I miss my sister
“F” u r discusting. I hate you…aslan I hate every thing feek…ur accent, ur hair…the way u talk walk…ur laugh …I hate EVERYTHING EVERYTHING feeeeeeeeeeeeek..its enough that u r bakheeeel!
Today I prepared sweets for my male collegues at work…Sayed makes fun of me coz I don’t know cook…:S.
I need to date somebody
I wondering what life hides for me
I need to plan well for my life

Enough for today..khalas

What's Your Number?

IF you were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month you are number 1.

If you were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then you are number 2.

If you were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then you are number 3.

If you were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then you are Number 4.

If you were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then you are number 5.

If you were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then you are number 6.

If you were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then you are number 7.

If you were born on the 8th, 17th, 26th of any month then you are number 8.

If you were born on the 9th, 18th, 27th of any month then you are number 9.

My Num is 3!

Number 3 You are hard hearted and selfish most of the time. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will be able to cope with everything. You seem to have your way in everything.And from birth you would always have to work hard to achieve anything you want.You always make a point to set examples on others, especially the younger ones. Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy dealing with you.A tough player you are! But once you are comfortable with someone, itwillbe a lasting friendship. You always earn respect from others. You seemtohave lots of worries and problems but they won't be for long. You will have brilliant kids! You love money a bit too much so temptation will push you to try endlessly. You will look after y! our family and help friends, soyouwill spend a life time just being generous and kind (except for men born on the 21st). You love your freedom, creative and ambitious, a person who brings beauty, hope & joy to this world!!! Your best match 6 and 9. Good match 1, 3, and 5.

Tell me wut ur num is & i'll give u what it means! Thanks North Star!

07 April, 2007

The Forbidden Love: When A Muslim Girl Falls In Love With A Christian Guy

We grow up in conditions that we can’t change. Sometimes, we are not supposed to change them. We ask ourselves questions with lost answers. Actually we know the answer, but the truth hurts.

Last night my friend asked me why we, as Muslim girls, cant get married to non-Muslim guys. “Its not fair”, “why men cant do it while we cant”, “are we animals”, love doesn’t know boundaries & religions”, “had shi bishi3” ( its sucks in Arabic)..etc!

Her rants really shocked me not because of the subject itself but becoz I know she is going to another adventurous relationship that will lead to nothing but pain & suffering. I was like for God’s sake mish na2isna!

A male friend of her started expressing his love& that if things were different he would allow himself to fall in love with her! To him she is idealism that leads to perfection! “loved his expression by the way!” The guy is Christian, Lebanese but of Armenian descent.

“He sings brilliantly, his voice is awesome, I like the way he talks, walks, he is adventurous, romantic, all in all I LIKE HIM”!!!!

They have been friends since ages and she never ever expected him to confess his special feelings. But it sounds friendship by time might turn into love! She just likes him but I’m afraid she will start falling. I keep asking her WHY DO U ATTRACT THE WRONG GUYS!

Personally, I don’t mind getting married to a Shii’ or even Christian! But if you choose to have a babe, then what religion is he going to embrace? If both parents aren’t highly educated &open-minded, the kid will be confused, torn into two pieces & lost between two religions, Islam & Christianity. Bearing in mind that Islam doesn’t allow women to marry a non-Muslim person, the whole issue seems impossible. Sometimes we get lost in life’s complexities. She told me about her Sunni friend that has been in love with a Shii guy for about five years. Her parents keep refusing the guy! It’s the worst torture that could happen to someone. The disastrous part is that Women can’t get married without their father’s permission, or any one in his place, otherwise the whole marriage will not be recognized.

If the situation was different, I would tell that girl to go ahead and marry that guy or run away with him! My friend was like would you do so? I was like YES OF COURSE..! but the situation is not different anyways...

Missing U

11 March, 2007

i miss u baba i really miss u ...i want u back in my life....i always ask God why u! i love u more than anything in life...really thank u ...although u cant do much to prtotect my little dream but i'm so proud to have a father like u...u were always there for me...missing our discussions in the balcony ...missing ur talks about me in every social gathering...missing ur unlimited support ....do u remember when we used to go for a ride by the beach...do u still remember my fav ice cream ...do u remember when we used to go shopping together...thanks 4 dropping me off to school everyday...i'm sorry 4 not showing my love to u ...have i ever said i love u dad...dont ever leave me alone...i dunno wut to do in life without u ...i love u 7abeby ...life has no meaning without ur blessings

i dedicate this song to u ...i know u love Om Kolthom as much as i love her..do u remember when we used to fight in the car ..u wanted to listen to her while i wanted to listen to Radio Sawa...and then we decide to switch the radio off and start i laughing...

wish if u were reading my lines

love u

04 March, 2007

Rhonada Britten

I have 3 options:

A) Delete my online diary & go back to documentaing my thoughts using the traditional way.

B) Start a new blog without telling who the hell i'm.

C) Keep this blog but turn off the comments thing.

till now i didnt decide..

At the moment i'm reading Rhonada's book ' Change your life in 30 days' & here are some statements that caught my attention & made me really think about what they might mean to me....

• ' When we make things up about the way people feel or think, it only confirms our low self-worth.'
• 'Invest in the life you have to get the life you want.'
• ' How you process information creates your perceptions & perceptions creates your world.'
• ' Dont focus on whether or not you achieved your ultimate goal. Acknowledgments are about the journey to becoming more true to yourself, not the end result.'
• ' In order to gain confidence you must take the risk you dont want to take'.
• ' Our fears of failure keeps us from doing the things we yearn to do'.

I'm still thinking about each & every sentence i've read so far..am i gonna change my life in 30 days? this is the question!

In Deep Shit

25 February, 2007

It sounds that I want to live in my own world with my own rules & it won’t work that way…my dreams of having a perfect Job & an excellent Salary ..etc were just dreams and I do have to live as a normal person who accepts what life gives her without seeking more …yesterday I received an e-mail seeking ass holes to work with them in the event management & entertainment arena…the financial benefits made me give the issue a second thought! Why not! 2 or 3 yrs and then that’s it! Plz Allah Strength my Faith in You!! My boss asked my to stay till next week so I can train the new candidate who will take my place…I dunno if I made the right choice by leaving my job! What I know that this year will be a tough one!

26 December, 2006

Hi guys …sounds this blog will turn into a chatting room…anyways life is good,

work is not bad,,,so far haven’t met any hot clients :((

On Sunday I ate “Tabeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekh” !!!

Yes tabeekh! Tabeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekh ..yummy yummm…Finally my sister in law cooked something eatable! Oh waiting for my brother to come so I can kick her out of my house! I am so frustrated coz she is useless! Wheneverr I wanna check on Sandy and Keri…there is no water nor food!! Oh gosh! Although she is staying all day home, she doesn’t bother having a look to c if there is food 4 the cats!!

Let me guys take the opportunity to apologize to Sandy and Keri for not being caring enough!! Love u my little angelsssssssssssssssssss….Feras I’ll post their pic some day just to show u adi they r cute a7la min ur skiiiiny scary cat!

Ok…Yesterday I reached home at 7:30...too early! No traffic since it was Chrismas..oh by the way Merry Christmas to you guys…so I was in bed by 8:00 pm! : ) ….ppl were calling me from everywhere lebanon ..Jordan and I didn’t bother to pick up the phone! Don’t they know that I sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep early! I should buy an alarm so I can switch off my mobile whenever I wana go to bed…

Missing my parents …so sad that things didn’t work with dad’s operation….that operation was the last hope….i miss him …miss looking into his hazel eyes….miss his talks about me and my future…miss his unlimited support against mom!

Anyways I got to go now otherwise I will start crying…..thx 4 ur sweet e-mails & 4 passing by….sorry 4 not being able to comment on ur blogs but I check them regularly…Happy New Year in advance ….by the way have u asked ur self wut things u accomplished in 2006 and things u wanna do and achieve in the coming year? Are u satisfied with the human being u r ?? I asked my self such questions and more so I might share the answers with u b4 the new year….

Yalla enjoy ur day ..byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Note: plz overlook any grammatical or spelling mistake!