Weekend Stuff

06 July, 2008

This morning I feel my head will explode …its heavy … its like carrying batikha (watermelon) I drank plenty of coffee, smoked two cigarettes, & took headache reliever …nothing is working : (

Friday was (nakad) & depressing. Didn’t feel like seeing anybody or talking to anybody…I spent all day long sleeping…. Yesterday I went to watch a movie with the “newly engaged friend”.... I watched “ AL RAyes Omar 7arb” it sucks….then we went for shisha probably my head is spinning becoz of that…or probably becoz I didn’t have enough sleep …u know I cant miss on watching Noor on MBC 4!!!

By the way I confronted my friend with what bothered me the other day…she explained her point of view & I tried to be understanding! See how good I’m ;)


Last week I sent an e-mail to my ex-boss who moved to KSA. I missed him so very much. It’s so amazing how chemistry played a role. I have been so close to him & I took plenty of time to realize that he left Dubai for good....

He replied back telling me that he laughed when he read my e-mail. He was talking about me ( as usual) in front of his colleagues who asked me to offer me a job in KSA. He seemed sooooooooo depressed.

Here is a part of what he wrote:

“thanks (……. )for your mail you makes me feel so happy
my family went to(……)I,m setting here alone , no place to go bcs i,m now single i have very restricted area to go.

any way i rely miss you and the time when we were setting together chatting about every thing our life and our future,now i cant find somebody to talk to.

let me tell one thing ,from the time i left Dubai may be you are the only person who is contacting me i don't know what wrong with the people i don't want you to feel bad i,m feeling very bad towards women you remember when i told you that i,m always feel that i,m not lucky with women , now i can feel it more , some of the girls whom i thought they are Friends they don't even answer my calls .

since i met you it was clear for me that you are different and now you prove it for me , you are rely a special person i wish we are setting now in Patti coffee taking our coffee and talking any way as they said you cant always get all what you want and some times you met people you wish you met them earlier in your life,

i don't know what i,m writing it seems that i,m very dispirit
pls keep in touch....with love "


I replied with a spirit- boasting e-mail hoping it will make him feel good. Actually my e-mail sounded like a lecture…..he is blaming women & women r blaming men..whats the hell!

Don’t get depressed my ex-moddddiiiiiiiiiiiiiiir

Hope to see u sooooooooooon.

06 April, 2008

I think I need a bloody hit on my head to wake up from the laziness phase I’m going through.

I sleeeeeeeeeeeeep a lot
Physical activity = 0
Mental activity= 0
I wake up late
I go to work late
My Tommy is getting bigger & bigger
I go to the saloon for the heck of wasting time & spending money
Appetite reducers didn’t work with me…I can’t close my mouth for more than 30 minz
These days I’m seeing nightmares on a daily basis
I have short temper most of the time
I don’t feel like doing anything at all
I’m hesitant in making decisions! Nothing matters to me..nothing is important anymore…every thing is 3adi
I put plans but I never make them true
I’m not concentrating on one thing at a time…I’m not concentrating at all
Sometimes I wonder what I want from life
I feel myself lost & confused
I’m just unhappy & I dunno why

I’m really worried & I’m scared as there are a lot of things coming up concerning my job that needs full dedication. I shouldn’t forget that I will register for two courses in May for my masters!


What the hell is happening to me? it is not me any more.
What do they call such symptoms? Is it depression?

10 December, 2007

Sometimes you get stuck in the middle.

You are afraid to go for Option B because you might regret doing so. You are afraid to lose the privileges & positives you are enjoying now. You are afraid of the unknown & its consequences. You are afraid of the new challenges.


At the same time the existing option is not tolerable. Its creativity killer.

I’m stuck & no one is willing to lead me to the right path. Why it’s scary to take decisions. What is the right decision? Why its impossible to be satisfied with what you have?

01 June, 2007

Blab Blaaaaaaaaaaaah……..Fashit Kholi2

I need a drastic change
I wish f I could live next to my work
I'm fed up with traffic
I'm fed up with my bosses

Arabs don’t know how to work in a professional way
Girls at work r crappy
Last night I discovered that my friends are fake
Last night I discovered that I feel jealous!
Just wondering why I like the wrong men all the time. Either married with kids or from a different religion
I need to quit smoking
I need to stop making accidents
I need to stop eating junk food
I need to spend time with my parents
I need to socialize more
I need to see Dr. Sultana for consultation
I don’t know if I have to call Hazem
I fed up with my double standard life
I like my nail extension
I need to relax
I like the new look of my hair
I wish if rama could visit dubai this July
I need to enjoy life
I want to go shopping again & again
i’m wondering why ppl can’t guess where I’m from.
I’m wondering why ppl have heart attack when they know where I’m from
I need to save money
I need to cut some expenses
May be I have to call Danya
I will not pay the bill again!
I miss my sister
“F” u r discusting. I hate you…aslan I hate every thing feek…ur accent, ur hair…the way u talk walk…ur laugh …I hate EVERYTHING EVERYTHING feeeeeeeeeeeeek..its enough that u r bakheeeel!
Today I prepared sweets for my male collegues at work…Sayed makes fun of me coz I don’t know cook…:S.
I need to date somebody
I wondering what life hides for me
I need to plan well for my life

Enough for today..khalas

26 December, 2006

Hi guys …sounds this blog will turn into a chatting room…anyways life is good,

work is not bad,,,so far haven’t met any hot clients :((

On Sunday I ate “Tabeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekh” !!!

Yes tabeekh! Tabeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekh ..yummy yummm…Finally my sister in law cooked something eatable! Oh waiting for my brother to come so I can kick her out of my house! I am so frustrated coz she is useless! Wheneverr I wanna check on Sandy and Keri…there is no water nor food!! Oh gosh! Although she is staying all day home, she doesn’t bother having a look to c if there is food 4 the cats!!

Let me guys take the opportunity to apologize to Sandy and Keri for not being caring enough!! Love u my little angelsssssssssssssssssss….Feras I’ll post their pic some day just to show u adi they r cute a7la min ur skiiiiny scary cat!

Ok…Yesterday I reached home at 7:30...too early! No traffic since it was Chrismas..oh by the way Merry Christmas to you guys…so I was in bed by 8:00 pm! : ) ….ppl were calling me from everywhere lebanon ..Jordan and I didn’t bother to pick up the phone! Don’t they know that I sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep early! I should buy an alarm so I can switch off my mobile whenever I wana go to bed…

Missing my parents …so sad that things didn’t work with dad’s operation….that operation was the last hope….i miss him …miss looking into his hazel eyes….miss his talks about me and my future…miss his unlimited support against mom!

Anyways I got to go now otherwise I will start crying…..thx 4 ur sweet e-mails & 4 passing by….sorry 4 not being able to comment on ur blogs but I check them regularly…Happy New Year in advance ….by the way have u asked ur self wut things u accomplished in 2006 and things u wanna do and achieve in the coming year? Are u satisfied with the human being u r ?? I asked my self such questions and more so I might share the answers with u b4 the new year….

Yalla enjoy ur day ..byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Note: plz overlook any grammatical or spelling mistake!