12 September, 2010

My blog's 5th Anniversary

Five years have passed so fast. I remember how often I used to blog releasing all the negative energy & thoughts I had, condemning what used to suffocate me from religions, cultural constraints….

I remember how writing used to set me free…I had the courage to write what I couldn’t say ….When I go back to my old posts back, I really laugh! I even cant recall what exactly used to trigger all the sadness I had….

5 years passed, probably im more mature now… Less rebellious, with more to understanding of the cultural burden we inherited from our "beloved" ancestors…I discovered that deep inside I'm the most traditional female you could ever meet yet I have a "rational modern twist" ….I'm against  dating yet against arranged marriage...Against prostitution & bitching yet against covering women from head to toe

Most importantly, i'm so very thankful to God who let me appreciate family values & relationships before its too late..

This spot will always have a special place in my heart ….its the private zone documenting intimate moments with myself

31 August, 2010

She thinks I would steal her boyfriend!!!

One of the reasons I don’t believe in true friendship between girls is the unbearable rages of jealousy among chicks.

Lately, I had enough from my friend's intolerable jealousy. She trurly thinks I would steal him from her!!! She keeps teasing me as if I care how often he calls her up, shows up, 7abiby said this & that…things getting so discusting esp when she describes in detail heir sexual relation & how happy they are when being together!!

She never misses a chance to TEASE ME DELIBERATELY & ON PURPOSE !! It makes me feel sick!
She used to CRY & FIGHT with her boyfriend when he mentions my name! last time she has gone crazy when he brought me a gift when came back from his vacation. I remember her crying saying why the hell he bring us the same gifts! i told her taaaaaaaaaake it I REALLY DONT WANT IT. . She refuses to exchange numbers with him! She even has gone too far by telling him that I got engaged & I'm about to get married SOON!!!

I wish if I could scream in her face & TELL HER I would never feel jealous of her & that I DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR SICK MENTALITY & UR BOYFRIEND. GET A LIFE!!!!!!!!

Not only bad luck with the opposite sex but also with the SAME sex :(

قاضي سعودي: تعيين لمى السليمان نائبة لرئيس "التجارة" جارح للمشاعر - Culture & Society - ArabianBusiness.com

05 February, 2010

قاضي سعودي: تعيين لمى السليمان نائبة لرئيس "التجارة" جارح للمشاعر - Culture & Society - ArabianBusiness.com

01 January, 2010

New Year Resolution List

Keep my job & focus on my career
Pay my loan & Keep my car
Save some money & cut down on unnecessary expenses
Stay healthy. Stay fit. Cut out the junk food.stop the emotional eating habit
Be positive, optimistic, happy, self confident, fresh
Read more
Socialize more
Learn new stuff
Forget the past & its memories
Exercise twice a week
Beat depression & boredom
Maintain & achieve the above-mentioned!!!

Here is what I was about to post yesterday before reading a very inspiring article…..

Was 2009 any good?

I have been reviewing the old posts written in Decembers 06 07 08 …i was searching for either a sparkle of optimism or happiness….unfortunately I couldn’t find any…

I was searching for any old resolution list so I can copy & past it signifying no remarkable achievements when it comes to my poor list!!….yes poor list…I lost the spirit which adores challenges …..

For me 2009 was one of the painful years ever….

Many cheated on me
Many deceived me
Many betrayed my trust
Many used my honesty
Many were mean to me

2009 was a year full of financial & emotional disappointments…I can remember the tears more than the laughs….career wise, its still the worst year ever….am I still suffering from mood swings? Yes I'm

I was brave enough to buy an astrology book for 2010 for Maguy Farah. I had some hope to boast my motivation for the new year but seems the starts & planets have a different plan! After reading the book I determined to stay at home predicting a stormy year!

……………………………I decided to drop the negative attitude thus i didn’t continue what I intended to write......

Here is what I had in mind after reading the article:

we can make our destinations…we can change…we can influence…we can make our happiness….

I wont fall a prisoner for my past …my pain
I can come over all the obstacles & start once again
Reading a good piece of article can always enlighten your vision & take u to a wider perspective that yours ….I'm planing to write all wut i didnt like in 2009 in a sheet of paper and then burn it!!!!!I'll try how it feeeeels to get rid of any sad memories...Why dont you try it too!?

anyways Hope 2010 would bring with it happiness, health, & peace & most importantly LOVE
Happy New Year

28 December, 2009

After a very strong emotional shock, here I'm still alive & breathing

I have heard about bastards' stories in life but I couldn’t imagine that I could fall a victim of any one of them. Despite being very protective serious & challenging, he managed to fool me & fool my family.

Im still wondering if he got paid to do wut he did. Or it was a dare? Wallahi it could be. My brain couldn’t stop thinking…I'm suffering from sleep disorder & my eye blood pressure hurts me like hell.

My heart is really broken. I don’t deserve to experience the horrible trap I've fallen in. The worst part I still couldn’t comprehend the MOTIVES behind his movie. Fake name, fake nationality, fake profession, fake details!!!! Every thing is fake… months, hours, minutes, seconds were full of lies. His family was fake, his residence was fake!!! His romance & love were fake!! It was a very dirty game with a well-planned scenario. No body could ever play such an illusional personality unless he has something in mind.

I can no longer trust people… I can no longer trust men

Fear & insecurity conquered my body & soul…waiting for a new sunrise to uncover my sadness…asking God to strengthen my patience & bless me with Oblivion

Still much more to learn the ward way …..will I ever see the light at the end of the tunnel ? will I ever unfold this page?

27 December, 2009

لازم اساعد نفسي كرمال اطلع من الحالة يالي انا فيها .... لازم اوقف تفكير بالموضوع و اتخطاه.. الحياه مدرسة و دروس و ياما رح اشوف وحوش ادمية و ناس مريضة اكتر من هيك.... لازم انسى هاي التجربة لازم انسى

انا رح افتح صحفة جديدية بحياتي لازم افتح صفحة جديدة

لازم انسى و الايام كفيلة تناسيني يالي صار

ما في حدن بيستاهل ادمر حياتي و مستقبلي عشانو

الحمدلله يالي انكشف الموضوع من بكير .... الحمدلله .... قدر الله و ماشاء فعل .... انا لازم اكون قوية و ارجع لحياتي الطبيعية ....حسبي الله و نعم الوكيل حسبي الله و نعم الوكيل حسبنا الله و نعم الوكيل

لازم انسى انا رح انسى الموضوع انا لازم انسى انا لاون انسى انا رح انسى

انا بكرهو انا بكرهو انا رح انسى انا قوية انا مش رح اضعف انا قوية و مش رح اسمح لحالي اضعف

انا ما رح استسلم الضربة يالي ما تكسر بتقوي انا لازم اتعلم من هاي التجربة

انا رح اطلع من يالي انا فيه .... انا قوية و لازم افتح طاقة أمل جديدة.... الحمدلله رب العالمين على كل الشيء... انا رح انسى انا ما رح دمر حياتي

انا لازم اوقف على رجلي كم جديد ... انا لازم اوقف على رجلي من جديد .... الحياه رح تستمر الحياه رح تكمل انا ما رح اكتئب انا رح اطلع من يالي انا فيه ... يا رب ساعدني يا رب ساعدني يارب وقف جنبي

انا قوية و لازم اطلع من التجربة باقل الخسائر الممكنة ...انا ما رح انكسر كرمال انسان حقيييير و ما عندو دين ... ما في حدن بيستاهل دموعي... انا لازم اكرهو ... انا بكرهو و الله رح ياخد حقي منو

انا قوية و لازم اتخطى التجربة .... اتعلمت درووووس كتييييرة

انا رح انسى انا قوية انا لازم ارجع لوضعي الطبيعي انا رح اتخطى الازمة انا مؤمنة بنفسي انا مؤمنة بنفسي

Please ignore the above mention shit coz its part of the way i heal my pain

UAE Torture Tape Released!

28 April, 2009

“He fires guns at him, inserts a cattle prod in his anus, sets fire to his testicles and runs him over”!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m in a shocking state & words run out as I cant imagine what I have seen. I’m more convinced that it’s the end of humanity!

Warning: if you cant tolerate watching such footage, PLZ DONT
Read this article written in the Guardian

No comment!!Mercy Mercy Mercy on Earth ya Allahhhhhhhhhhhh

Abu Dhabi court sentences parents to 10 years in jail for child abuse

27 April, 2009

Abu Dhabi: The father and stepmother of a nine-year-old girl have been sentenced to 10 years in jail for torturing the child.

The Abu Dhabi Criminal Court also ordered the parents to jointly pay Dh160,000 in compensation to the youngster, Naouf, who will be offered the maximum levels of physical and psychological care and rehabilitation to help her overcome the effects of her ordeal, according to officials.

The criminal court earlier heard the case of the girl who suffered horrific injuries. The paternal grandmother and uncles of the victim - who is being treated for burns, knife cuts and bruises over her body at Al Mafraq Hospital, gave statements against the father.
The grandmother told the court the youngster had been tortured at the hands of her father and stepmother.

More details can be found here!

Armenian Genocide

25 April, 2009

estimated that around 1.5 ppl were killed during the Armenian Genocide

Torturing Gays in Iraq

21 April, 2009

I’m not here to defend gays but I’m writing this post to express my disgust of those who appoint them selves as Gods on Earth to spread morality & cleanse people’s sins in the most cruel, inhumane, & barbaric way.

For Arabic speakers, you can check out this. Gays in Iraq are getting kidnapped, severely Tortured,& then shot by religious Militia in Iraq, more specifically by Shiite. Such Iraqi militia gets creative in using horrible beyond the description tools & way that let their victims suffer before death!

It has been reported that they use very strong “ Iranian Glue” to close their butts!! After letting them drink things causing diarrhea & they watch them dying slowly in pain!! They are just teenagers! Human
beings are turning into monsters! Do you think this would be the right way?? Torture & execution are the solutions to fix the world?

I hereby ask: who the hell are you to interfere with people’s religious convections & sexual orientations!!! Why we r still far away from realizing that we NEED FREEDOM in this part of the world. FREEDOM & PEACE!

I think Iraq was much better during Sadam’s era!

To my blog with apology!

15 April, 2009

I feel sympathy towards this blog. It tolerated a lot & has been my window when being depressed or upset. Actually I used blogging mainly as a modern therapeutic methodology when feeling irritated!!! Without doubt, that consequently reflected a certain image of me being so desperate in life! I cant deny that I come across tough moments when I feel myself week, vulnerable, & pessimistic.

This blog witnessed various stages of my life & drastic transitions in my thinking about the world. I hereby express my thanks along with apologies to this webpage!

I would never delete this blog! One day I might go through what I have written & just laugh (I’m doing that already!!)
I really miss my old fellow bloggers who either quit or just disappeared. Have not heard from them since ages. I’m also blamed for being inactive in networking in the blogsphere. Here is some of them:

Abu Faris (Syria),AL Baal Big Fat Ego CF (UAE) Dana (Jordan) DG (UAE) Digital Niqabi (US) Dina (UAE) Eshda3wa (Kuwait) Eva Feras (Jordan) Fouad (UAE) Gardinia (Syria) Hanan (UAE) Jawahir (Oman) John Ford Khaled (Jordan) Local Expat (UAE) Lost & Confused (Oman) Maryam MD (UAE) Mothings Nash (Oman) Out of Me Sabra (Canada) Samer (US) Stained (UAE) Summer (US)

And many many more…….

I’m determined to either revamp the blog inside out or just quit blogging.

April resolution would be a life time resolution hoping to look at life in an optimistic way, to embrace wut Allah has given me, love things/ppl the way they are, accept reality, & seek positive changes in attitude, mentality, & way of life….

I’m looking for a new beginning….. a bright start indeed …today I’m opening a new window
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step & I started with changing the blog color.

Would this feeling last??? I hope so

I Need UR Recommendations!

12 April, 2009

I’m heading to the bookstore today evening

Would love to hear some suggestions on some good tiles.

My mind is in need of something to read. psychology, personal development, diary, business, spiritual topics. Women’s rights, or poetry, all would be fine. I guess I’m in the mood to read something related to psychology esp mood swings & personality disorders! Or most probably something on self-esteem & positive attitude. anything informative & enjoyable !

Any recommendations!??!!!!!!???

28 March, 2009

I’m very depressed as usual. I am thinking of finding a good psychiatrist in town before its too late. I have been suffering from severe sadness for years & I wish if I could put an end to this nightmare

Hehe Tomorrow I’m going on a blind date !!! LOL

10 March, 2009

Following the tremendous failure encountered last week meeting a “horrible 3ares” (yuk i dont want to remember), i decided to go wild!!!

Khalasssssssss I totally gave up on the idea of finding a perfect match or Mr. Right :( so I made up my mind & concluded that waiting for ever is not an option at all.

I’m having a blind date tomorrooooooooooooooooow whohoooooooo…well I don’t know if I can call it a DATE but my friend has been deseperately trying to arrange a couple outings with the friend of her boy friend lol sounds complicated huh?4 of us will hang out & lets see what will happen

If by any chance the situation ended up like the cartoon above I would be still fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ...hope so lol .By the way shall I buy a souvenir or wut :P? and if yes, what shall i buy?

Anyways, today I’ll go shopping & then definitely will go to the saloon to get my nails done :D

I’ll try to ENJOY! Will keep me updated!


Happy International Women’s Day!

09 March, 2009

8th March

For every woman out there, I say Happy International Women’s Day!
Continue what you have started & if u haven’t started yet START NOW
Continue your love, contribution, progress, persistence, & most importantly stand up for your rights

With Love,
Arab Lady

Anazer (another) Blab Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

17 February, 2009

shatoora ana ana i took this photo

Since I’m damn bored now waiting for the clock to tick 5:30 PM announcing officially that it’s the end of the daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay….just for your information its still 9:45 AM……..way too early to start counting …….right : (

I’m the type of ppl who gets BORED QUICKLY ……So tell me how was your Valentine? Any good news? Mine sucked & was preceded with severe depression. This valentine passed by without having a date nor a fiancé : (
Too bad huh…somehow my friends managed to convince me to go & hang out….currently I’m not into heavy makeup but booked an appointment & had my make up done by a makeup stylist taba3an in attempt to lift my spirits up!! I wore black in black ! actually I wore one of the shortest skirts I have! I looooooooooove short skirts!!

Anyways, yesterday I stumbled over E while hanging out at Mall of the Emirates. I haven’t seen him since March 2007! He came back to dubai recently but never managed to catch up with each other…..


The boyfriend of my Best Friend is driving her crazy ….yesterday we were negotiating about her plans to cheat on him!!! (7aki niswan)Well I advised her to give him some time to fix the situation & if things didn’t get any better GO AHEAD BABE & DATE someone else!!! Hehe what a bad friend … her b/f brought me on my birthday beautiful roses & a gigantic pinky bear whose head couldn’t pass through my room door!! Actually I told her don’t expect men to remain the same creatures the first day u met them! They do change A LOT once they figure out u r in love with them……….
L is getting married in May! Ya rab ya rab plzz plzz I wanna loooooooooooooooooose weight before her wedding ceremony!! Any ideas for lovely useful gifts that would draw a smile on the face of one of the most beautiful brides ever.

By the way I’m still bored…lol
ANYWAY I think I will write another post to kill time as I don’t feel like doing anything…

Blabblaaaah...another day

26 January, 2009

I am so delighted to see my starvation plan working perfectly fine & beyond my expectation. Its almost the 9th day if I’m not mistaken. The resolution is like no chocolate, no coke, no fast food, no fattening stuff, no tea with milk along with drinking a lot of water, almost two litters per day!

Lately I have been so upset about my body & the way I look …I just want my sexy body back. I tried zillions of things....fitness centers, fat burning, appetite reducers but nothing worked since I lacked the determination & will…..food along with infrequent blogging were the only ways I used to manifest & express my depression & emotional status….

Hope I would be able to continue what I have started…. I have too….do I have another option?….for a change I’m thinking of changing my hair style & geting my eyebrow reshaped…looking for a tattoo artist too? If you know someone professional in dubai plz let me know..
I haven’t changed my hair color in 6 months …do you imagine! I just had some highlight three months ago …Actually I have tried various colors blond, red, & black ….now I’m looking for a new color…probably i might wait for another six months until I finish my masters ….finishing my degree would signal the start of a new chapter in my life so changing my look would be a must then!

Today I talked with my sister …I don’t know what to say but she sounded frustrated & said she doenst want to have anything to do with this family anymore! She had enough of listening to our problems….

I wish if you could know how much I love you my beloved sister ….sometimes I feel I love her more than my mother …she is my supporting back…I could never imagine my life without her ….she never let me down….was by my side since ever….i just love u more than anything in life…

Daaaaaaaah I’m sick of myself being tooooo emotional ………isn’t the right time to toughen my heart & get over my weaknesses

A good question!

I got to start studying ….

22 January, 2009

This semester I got some heavy subjects & honestly im afraid to screw up in Retail marketing Management!
I have got two projects & plenty of assignments for this damn course as if we are not full time employeeeeeeeeeees! For god’s sake we are not working for the government sector!! We are not that spoiled …..
Whats the hell! are we studying at Harvard….
For the individual project onlyyy, he wants secondary data, 5 interviews with retailers & 6 observational Examples! Get a life!! Who would have the time to do all of that!!

I feel sorry for my money wasted in doing my masters here….i could have studied at AUC or AUD without the imaginary figure we pay each semester….6 months & 9 days to go …..lately I have been nagging , whining, complaining a lot …right?
: )

I won't wish my self a peaceful weekend this time…an average one would be ok !!


If your religion does not change you, change your religion

21 January, 2009

**** If your religion does not change you, change your religion****

An inspiring quote I came across yesterday….its by Elbert Hubbard..
I have been thinking a lot about this sentence ….my sister threw some comments last night when she said
you are not in need of us…nor do we …but remember that one day you will be asked about your deeds!!

Shall women compromise in the name of religion?
Shall I surrender submit ….accept the current situation & tolerate more shit because allah will punish me if I wanna go against the current flow!!! So surprising that she wants me to experience what she has gone through! Advocates of misery!

I’m just asking when can religion become a burden on Mankind!! So would you change your religion if it didn’t change you!

My Life in a boooook

20 January, 2009

Today while I’m heading to office I had the idea of turning my blog into a diary published to the public…the only difference would be sharing my thoughts on every thing ...its not an experience of not being a thinker, scientist, politician but an Arab female living in a Muslim conservative male dominated cultures….

I don’t know if my life details & the obstacles I faced & I’m still facing would inspire young ladies out there….i reached to a point that I cant compromise anymore….some people accuse me of being too ambiguous …they cant understand that I’m tired of hiding many things I kept secret for years…

i have been restricted to practice my rights just becoz of gender issues….i have missed out on lots of opportunities & chances that could have pushed me steps forward….

Sometimes I wish if I could write about every thing & anything on this webpage without being afraid of revealing my identity or discovering who I’m ……….

No one on earth knows that I have been sexually harassed in my childhood ..one of the incidents was by close ppl..i wish if I could know mom’s reaction when she discovers who tried to sexually molest me when I was 6 years old…..

I would also tell my story with Hija which i put it on for a certain time ....then I couldn’t tolerate it anymore…being a non-hejabi now put me under the criticism zone for ever…I have got many things to say to the world…most importantly to the fucking culture….

i will really work hard to make this idea come true … even if I couldn’t change my life…my experience would change the life of many young ambitious ladies ….i wont reveal my identity as it will always remain Arab Lady …i really hope to accomplish this dream by the end of 2009….i will just write it publish it & distribute it FOR FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

ضقنا ذرعا منك يا "دول الاعتدال"

17 January, 2009

المؤامرة العربية لاغتيال المقاومة....يا أيها الخائنون لأوطانكم
دور الدول العربية تجاه القضية الفلسطينية بات مفضوووووح و أصبح "العبيط" قبل العاقل يفطن ان تأخر الدول العربية "المعتدلة" في أخذ موقف يشرف شعوبها ما هو إلا لاعطاء اسرائيل المزيد من الوقت لإنهاء و تصفية المقاومة في الأراضي المحتلة

شي مخزي او بالأحرى مقزز" لرئيس دولة" منتهية صلاحيته ان يتقاعس عن حضور قمة قد عقدت لانقاذ شعبه!!!! تعرض" لضغوط" ؟ أي ضغوط هذه ؟
انا اسأل عباس الآن: لأجندة من أنت تعمل؟
موقف مشرف لدولة قطر أن تدعو قادة الفصائل الفلسطينية المقاومة! هم ممثلين الشعب و هم المتحدثين الرسميين عن شعب غدرته أجندات السلطة الفلسطينية و أجندات "الدول العربية المعتدلة"

"الدولة العربية الكبرى" تتبجح بدورها و تضحياتها و الخمس الحروب التي خاضتها من أجل الفلسطينيين و كان النظام الحاكم الحالي هو من كان صاحب القرار بتأدية واجب ديني و قومي و نضالي!!

زمن الشرفاء انتهى و أطالب كل فلسطيني بكف مناجاة " الدولة العربية الكبرى" لفتح المعابر فقد باعت فتح و السلطة القضية فلماذا نحمل "الدول المعتدلة" مسؤوليات قومية في حين هي نفسها لا تستطيع تأدية واجباتها تجاه شعوبها!

أنا نفسي افهم ماهو مبدأ المواطنة و حقوق المواطن لدى العرب في حين الحكومة في وادي و الشعب في واد!!!
لماذا يخضع المواطن لاجندة الحكومة الغير شعبية في حين المطلوب ان تمثل الحكومات شعوبها!!

أنا أطالب كل فلسطيني و عربي و كل انسان شريف بان يحمي و يدافع عن حق النضال المسلح ضد الاحتلال و عدم الانجراف وراء تراهات أناس باعوا انفسهم قبل ان يبيعوا القضية...

أطالب أهل الضفة بموقف وطني و أطالب حركة فتح بالاختفاااااااااااء عن الخريطة السياسية لان مشوارها المليء بالفضائح و الفساد السياسي و الاداري الذي أساء لوحدة الشعب الفلسطيني و رسخ الانقسام و غدر بالمقاومة و تآمر على شعب غزة... يا أهل الضفة فيييييييئوا فيييييئوا بنعاتب العربي و نسينا اهل البلد!!!!

انا أطالب أهل غزة برفض المعونات الاغاثية المرسلة من قبل "الدول المعتدلة" !! شعب حر شريف لا يقبل مال ملطخ بدم اطفال و دم غدر...

يا تجار الأرض....يا تجار سلام الشجعان....يا تجار الدولار و الدينار....
اخرجوا من أرضنا ... من برنا ....من بحرنا....من قمحنا ... من ملحنا.... من جرحنا.... من كل شيء ، و اخرجوا من مفردات الذاكرة

The Bitter Taste of Betrayal…Another Chapter …

I was strongly mistaken when I wished my self a peaceful weekend.
On the contrary it was a very depressing, heartbreaking weekend embroidered with bloody news…

Before switching off my car engine & before the minute I stepped into our house.. my brother bombarded me with some bad news

3rifti sho sar be beet khali?? (Did you know what happened to my uncle’s house?)
I was like shit what….
It got hit by the Iseali Army

I was frozen for a minute trying to imagine what happened to Mart Khali, her daughters in law, the kids….and everybody

A five floor building located next to UNWRA office collapsed….
2 kids got injured & the family escaped searching for a safe shelter …THX GOD ejat 3a 2ad heek!However, the worst part resembles in having 3 missing cousins

Probably I have mentioned before that Khali (mom’s bro) came from Gaza a month ago on a visit to UAE…How the hell you wana inform Khali who god knows how many health problems he suffers from…diabetes, blood pressure, & heart problems, I can go on & on
We haven’t informed Mom & khali on Thursday but as u know bad news spread fast….I couldn’t help but cry …I truly panicked ….ur blood boils when u see them being killed for no reason but when u see some beloved ppl in pain & horror you cry your heart out

Mom’s relatives now are dispersed ….she doesn’t know where some of her nieces & nephews have gone…they fled their homes & went to unknown places….my two aunts are fine but they are about to lose their mind from what they see….

The worst part comes on Friday Morning when I woke up on hearing mom crying for her niece who got killed with her husband & three kids ….a missile was shot on their car while heading to the hospital!! I couldn’t imagine how her sisters feel now! They lost their mother two years back & now they lost their sister…yalla allah ..please some mercy!

May they rest in eternal peace along with those who lost their souls & those who are still falling while we do nothing…we watch them getting slaughtered

Bent khali (my cousin) who lives in UAE has lost connection with her sister too ….the last call was when she heard her screaming “they hit our home & my daughter was home”…Thank God her 3- year- old daughter didn’t get hurt but the whole building collapsed when Israel hit the house of Saeed Siyam, one of Hammas Leaders …she had her daughter after more than 12 years! What about who lose their kids in dozens….entire families have been abolished.? Who will hear their screams….

I’m wearing black until this Umah wakes up & betrayer get their punishment…

Turned Twenty-Something

15 January, 2009

Somebody turned twenty-something few days back! I’m getting older & hopefully getting mature & wise as well!! duh

Well well well I’m officially labeled a “spinster now” : ) who cares anyways….i wish if things could have been better on all stages ( money, education, career, & most importantly love)!!

Got to loooooooooooooooooose weight…a sentence that I have been repeating it since ages! I need to get a liposuction then go hunt for a man ! lol

I’m wishng myself & everybody a peaceful weekend!


Shall History Forgive Us!

11 January, 2009

I feel helpless in the light of what is going in Palestine. The holocaust is still going on & the international community is helpless too. Hundreds of thousands Protested worldwide to condemn the barbaric cruel war but the screams fall on deaf ears!!!

No honorable political action has been taken so far by our governments. Donations & condemnation are useless too. Unless the economical card is used, war crimes in gaza will not be stopped.

What a memorable day in history when the president of Venezuela kicked out the Israeli ambassador to protest against the country's assault on Gaza!I believe arabs everywhere have the same expectations of Egypt, Jordan, Qatar, & Mauritania !

A group of Egyptian lawyers has recently succeeded in forcing Egyptian court to Overrule
a controversial 20-year deal on gas exports to Israel.Egypt loses $9m for each day that Cairo upholds the fixed-price agreement with Israel!So why Egypt is still supplying Nazis, oppps I mean their beloved peace partners, with gas although it goes against its national interest!

I still believe we, arabs, can do much better on the streets & via boycotting …through showing reality to others who have been brainwashed by their biased media….

I wish if I could have time to start a professional documentary website on the history of Palestine illustrating original maps & documents proving that this country has been suffering from ethical cleansing wars for the past 6 decades in a trial to abolish the native inhabitants….its a must project on my list! But serious efforts shall be joined to let this project see the light. meanwhile I hope that this simple slides pulled together by me in my free time could help reflect the tragedy of an occupied nation….

At this moment I proudly announce being anti-peace talks …pro Palestinian, pro-Hamas, pro-military resistance , anti-fatih ….! Full stop!!

اختلط الحابل بالنابل

09 January, 2009

بعد جولة سريعة لبعض المدونات العربية اتضح لي ان كفة ميزان المحتل النازي اضحت متساوية مع كفة المقاوم عند الاخوة العرب!

أصبح المقاوم "مجرد ارهابي مغطى بكيس اسود بفتحتين
شعور بالحسرة المؤلمة ان تنقسم الشعوب العربية بين شاجب و مؤيد لحق المقاومة المسلحة و كانه أمر غير مشروع! و متى كان يعاب على الشعوب كفاحها. و هل المطلوب الآن من الشعب الفلسطيني الرضوخ لانظمة لها أجندة مغايرة للأجندة شعوبها.

ماذا فعلت المقاومة الاسلامية في فلسطين لتنال سيل من الخناجر و ينعت شبابها المقاومين بالمتعصبين و المتشددين! هل تغير مفهوم المقاومة عبر العصور ام تغيرنا نحن!

هل أصبح حق الرد و حق الدفاع عن الارض و العرض ارهابا عند الاخوة العرب؟!

الشعب الفلسطيني اختار حماس بانتخابات شرعية و ديمقراطية بعد ان فشل خيار السلام مع من لا يريدون السلام.

عقود من الضلال و الفساد السياسي و النهب عاشها الشعب الفلسطيني تحت حكم حركة فتح ؟ وماذا بعد؟
يتشدق الليبيراليون العرب بخيار السلام ؟ فاي خيار سلام هذا؟
عقود من المحاداثات " العبثية" التي افضت لمزيد من ضياع للحقوق و هدم للبيوت و تجريف للمزارع ومصادرة للأراضي!

عقود من المحاداثات " العبثية" التي افضت لضياع حق عودة الاجئين و حق الحصول على دولة ذات سيادة...أي محادثات سلام يتكلمون عنها و اكثر من 11,000 معتقل فقد الامل بالحياة مثل اي شاب عادي....و جيل من الاطفال بعاني من أمراض نفسيا و يمنع من ابسط حقوق الطفولة...

احساس الخيانة له مذاق مر عندما ياتي من اقرب الناس لديك
حمى الله المقاومة "الغير عبثية" حامية الارض و الشجر و الحجر و اقول لرجال المقاومة مثلما غنت جوليا بطرس
لمقوامي حزب اللة في حرب اسرائيل على لبنان عام 2006

فأنتم مثلما قلتم رجال الله في الميدان
ووعدٌ صادقٌ أنتم
وأنتم نصرنا الآتي
وأنتم من جبال الشمسِ عاتيةٌ على العاتي
بكم يتحرر الأسرى
بكم تتحرر الأرض
ُبقبضتكم بغضبتك
ميصان البيت والعرضُ
بناة حضارةٍ أنتم وأنتم نهضة القيمِ

أقبلُ نبلَ أقدامٍبه
ا يتشرّفُ الشرفُ
بعزّةِ أرضنا انغرستْ
فلا تكبو وترتجفُبكم
سنغيرُ الدنياويسمعُ صوتنا القدر
ُبكم نبني الغدَ الأحلى
بكم نمضي وننتصر

I got Palestine’s flag!

07 January, 2009

Yesterday few of sharjah & Dubai residents participated in the silent protest held at am phi theater located in Dubai Media City…attendees lit candles & held the flags…for the first time in my life I participate in such a gathering showing solidarity to people in Gaza Strip... its an overwhelming feeling…was so lovely to see some non-Arab faces carrying some pictures of Gaza’s Massacre …although it’s a nice gesture from the volunteers who organized the event but things could have been better by having a planned program. The most important thing I feel happy about is the small flag I got….i even brought it with me to work.

Meanwhile I’m uploading more pictures on my blog, msn profile, & facebook along with sending some e-mails to all my contacts to let the world see the unseen truth….pictures speak a thousand word don’t they say so
I’m so terrified as I can see no end to this barbaric war…they hit every living spot…they bombed schools, mosques, houses, factories…it’s one of the dirtiest ethical cleansing wars ever….& the world enjoys seeing the Palestinian blood,
innocent victims falling everyday
unbelievable destruction,
children’s bodies torn into pieces
chemical weapons used against disarmed civilians
abolition of the human kind…
and the world remains silent!

I feel like singing Mawtini….
Here is the lyrics…sing with me & pass it on …beautiful words…

مَــوطِــنــي مَــوطِــنــي
الجـلالُ والجـمالُ والسَّــنَاءُ والبَهَاءُ
فـــي رُبَــاكْ فــي رُبَـــاكْ
والحـياةُ والنـجاةُ والهـناءُ والرجـاءُ
فــي هـــواكْ فــي هـــواكْ
هـــــلْ أراكْ هـــــلْ أراكْ
سـالِماً مُـنَـعَّـماً وَ غانِـمَاً مُـكَرَّمَاً
هـــــلْ أراكْ فـي عُـــلاكْ
تبـلُـغُ السِّـمَـاكْ تبـلـغُ السِّـمَاك
مَــوطِــنِــي مَــوطِــنِــي
مَــوطِــنِــي مَــوطِــنِــي
الشبابُ لنْ يكِلَّ هَمُّهُ أنْ تستَقِـلَّ أو يَبيدْ
نَستقي منَ الـرَّدَى ولنْ نكونَ للعِــدَى
كالعَـبـيـــــدْ كالعَـبـيـــــدْ
لا نُريــــــدْ لا نُريــــــدْ
ذُلَّـنَـا المُـؤَبَّـدا وعَيشَـنَا المُنَكَّـدا
لا نُريــــــدْ بـلْ نُعيــــدْ
مَـجـدَنا التّـليـدْ مَـجـدَنا التّليـدْ
مَــوطِــنــي مَــوطِــنِــي
مَــوطِــنِــي مَــوطِــنِــي
الحُسَامُ و اليَـرَاعُ لا الكـلامُ والنزاعُ
رَمْــــــزُنا رَمْــــــزُنا
مَـجدُنا و عـهدُنا وواجـبٌ منَ الوَفا
يهُــــــزُّنا يهُــــــزُّنا
عِـــــــزُّنا عِـــــــزُّنا
غايةٌ تُـشَــرِّفُ و رايـةٌ ترَفـرِفُ
يا هَـــنَــاكْ فـي عُـــلاكْ
قاهِراً عِـــداكْ قاهِـراً عِــداكْ
مَــوطِــنِــي مَــوطِــنِــي

Massacre of Gazan Children‏

05 January, 2009