12 September, 2010

My blog's 5th Anniversary

Five years have passed so fast. I remember how often I used to blog releasing all the negative energy & thoughts I had, condemning what used to suffocate me from religions, cultural constraints….

I remember how writing used to set me free…I had the courage to write what I couldn’t say ….When I go back to my old posts back, I really laugh! I even cant recall what exactly used to trigger all the sadness I had….

5 years passed, probably im more mature now… Less rebellious, with more to understanding of the cultural burden we inherited from our "beloved" ancestors…I discovered that deep inside I'm the most traditional female you could ever meet yet I have a "rational modern twist" ….I'm against  dating yet against arranged marriage...Against prostitution & bitching yet against covering women from head to toe

Most importantly, i'm so very thankful to God who let me appreciate family values & relationships before its too late..

This spot will always have a special place in my heart ….its the private zone documenting intimate moments with myself

31 August, 2010

She thinks I would steal her boyfriend!!!

One of the reasons I don’t believe in true friendship between girls is the unbearable rages of jealousy among chicks.

Lately, I had enough from my friend's intolerable jealousy. She trurly thinks I would steal him from her!!! She keeps teasing me as if I care how often he calls her up, shows up, 7abiby said this & that…things getting so discusting esp when she describes in detail heir sexual relation & how happy they are when being together!!

She never misses a chance to TEASE ME DELIBERATELY & ON PURPOSE !! It makes me feel sick!

She used to CRY & FIGHT with her boyfriend when he mentions my name! last time she has gone crazy when he brought me a gift when came back from his vacation. I remember her crying saying why the hell he bring us the same gifts! i told her taaaaaaaaaake it I REALLY DONT WANT IT. . She refuses to exchange numbers with him! She even has gone too far by telling him that I got engaged & I'm about to get married SOON!!!

I wish if I could scream in her face & TELL HER I would never feel jealous of her & that I DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR SICK MENTALITY & UR BOYFRIEND. GET A LIFE!!!!!!!!

Not only bad luck with the opposite sex but also with the SAME sex :(

قاضي سعودي: تعيين لمى السليمان نائبة لرئيس "التجارة" جارح للمشاعر - Culture & Society - ArabianBusiness.com

05 February, 2010

قاضي سعودي: تعيين لمى السليمان نائبة لرئيس "التجارة" جارح للمشاعر - Culture & Society - ArabianBusiness.com

01 January, 2010

New Year Resolution List


Keep my job & focus on my career
Pay my loan & Keep my car
Save some money & cut down on unnecessary expenses
Stay healthy. Stay fit. Cut out the junk food.stop the emotional eating habit
Be positive, optimistic, happy, self confident, fresh
Read more
Socialize more
Learn new stuff
Forget the past & its memories
Exercise twice a week
Beat depression & boredom
Maintain & achieve the above-mentioned!!!

Here is what I was about to post yesterday before reading a very inspiring article…..


Was 2009 any good?

I have been reviewing the old posts written in Decembers 06 07 08 …i was searching for either a sparkle of optimism or happiness….unfortunately I couldn’t find any…

I was searching for any old resolution list so I can copy & past it signifying no remarkable achievements when it comes to my poor list!!….yes poor list…I lost the spirit which adores challenges …..

For me 2009 was one of the painful years ever….

Many cheated on me
Many deceived me
Many betrayed my trust
Many used my honesty
Many were mean to me

2009 was a year full of financial & emotional disappointments…I can remember the tears more than the laughs….career wise, its still the worst year ever….am I still suffering from mood swings? Yes I'm

I was brave enough to buy an astrology book for 2010 for Maguy Farah. I had some hope to boast my motivation for the new year but seems the starts & planets have a different plan! After reading the book I determined to stay at home predicting a stormy year!

……………………………I decided to drop the negative attitude thus i didn’t continue what I intended to write......

And
Here is what I had in mind after reading the article:

we can make our destinations…we can change…we can influence…we can make our happiness….

I wont fall a prisoner for my past …my pain
I can come over all the obstacles & start once again
Reading a good piece of article can always enlighten your vision & take u to a wider perspective that yours ….I'm planing to write all wut i didnt like in 2009 in a sheet of paper and then burn it!!!!!I'll try how it feeeeels to get rid of any sad memories...Why dont you try it too!?

anyways Hope 2010 would bring with it happiness, health, & peace & most importantly LOVE

Happy New Year

28 December, 2009

After a very strong emotional shock, here I'm still alive & breathing

I have heard about bastards' stories in life but I couldn’t imagine that I could fall a victim of any one of them. Despite being very protective serious & challenging, he managed to fool me & fool my family.

Im still wondering if he got paid to do wut he did. Or it was a dare? Wallahi it could be. My brain couldn’t stop thinking…I'm suffering from sleep disorder & my eye blood pressure hurts me like hell.

My heart is really broken. I don’t deserve to experience the horrible trap I've fallen in. The worst part I still couldn’t comprehend the MOTIVES behind his movie. Fake name, fake nationality, fake profession, fake details!!!! Every thing is fake… months, hours, minutes, seconds were full of lies. His family was fake, his residence was fake!!! His romance & love were fake!! It was a very dirty game with a well-planned scenario. No body could ever play such an illusional personality unless he has something in mind.

I can no longer trust people… I can no longer trust men

Fear & insecurity conquered my body & soul…waiting for a new sunrise to uncover my sadness…asking God to strengthen my patience & bless me with Oblivion

Still much more to learn the ward way …..will I ever see the light at the end of the tunnel ? will I ever unfold this page?

27 December, 2009

لازم اساعد نفسي كرمال اطلع من الحالة يالي انا فيها .... لازم اوقف تفكير بالموضوع و اتخطاه.. الحياه مدرسة و دروس و ياما رح اشوف وحوش ادمية و ناس مريضة اكتر من هيك.... لازم انسى هاي التجربة لازم انسى

انا رح افتح صحفة جديدية بحياتي لازم افتح صفحة جديدة

لازم انسى و الايام كفيلة تناسيني يالي صار

ما في حدن بيستاهل ادمر حياتي و مستقبلي عشانو

الحمدلله يالي انكشف الموضوع من بكير .... الحمدلله .... قدر الله و ماشاء فعل .... انا لازم اكون قوية و ارجع لحياتي الطبيعية ....حسبي الله و نعم الوكيل حسبي الله و نعم الوكيل حسبنا الله و نعم الوكيل

لازم انسى انا رح انسى الموضوع انا لازم انسى انا لاون انسى انا رح انسى

انا بكرهو انا بكرهو انا رح انسى انا قوية انا مش رح اضعف انا قوية و مش رح اسمح لحالي اضعف

انا ما رح استسلم الضربة يالي ما تكسر بتقوي انا لازم اتعلم من هاي التجربة

انا رح اطلع من يالي انا فيه .... انا قوية و لازم افتح طاقة أمل جديدة.... الحمدلله رب العالمين على كل الشيء... انا رح انسى انا ما رح دمر حياتي

انا لازم اوقف على رجلي كم جديد ... انا لازم اوقف على رجلي من جديد .... الحياه رح تستمر الحياه رح تكمل انا ما رح اكتئب انا رح اطلع من يالي انا فيه ... يا رب ساعدني يا رب ساعدني يارب وقف جنبي

انا قوية و لازم اطلع من التجربة باقل الخسائر الممكنة ...انا ما رح انكسر كرمال انسان حقيييير و ما عندو دين ... ما في حدن بيستاهل دموعي... انا لازم اكرهو ... انا بكرهو و الله رح ياخد حقي منو

انا قوية و لازم اتخطى التجربة .... اتعلمت درووووس كتييييرة

انا رح انسى انا قوية انا لازم ارجع لوضعي الطبيعي انا رح اتخطى الازمة انا مؤمنة بنفسي انا مؤمنة بنفسي

Please ignore the above mention shit coz its part of the way i heal my pain

UAE Torture Tape Released!

28 April, 2009

“He fires guns at him, inserts a cattle prod in his anus, sets fire to his testicles and runs him over”!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m in a shocking state & words run out as I cant imagine what I have seen. I’m more convinced that it’s the end of humanity!

Warning: if you cant tolerate watching such footage, PLZ DONT

Watch this horrible tape featuring a member of Abu Dhabi royal house torturing Afghani Merchant.


http://abcnews.go.com/Video/playerIndex?id=7401720http://abcnews.go.com/Video/playerIndex?id=7401720http://abcnews.go.com/Video/playerIndex?id=7401720

Read this article written in the Guardian

No comment!!Mercy Mercy Mercy on Earth ya Allahhhhhhhhhhhh

Abu Dhabi court sentences parents to 10 years in jail for child abuse

27 April, 2009

Abu Dhabi: The father and stepmother of a nine-year-old girl have been sentenced to 10 years in jail for torturing the child.

The Abu Dhabi Criminal Court also ordered the parents to jointly pay Dh160,000 in compensation to the youngster, Naouf, who will be offered the maximum levels of physical and psychological care and rehabilitation to help her overcome the effects of her ordeal, according to officials.

The criminal court earlier heard the case of the girl who suffered horrific injuries. The paternal grandmother and uncles of the victim - who is being treated for burns, knife cuts and bruises over her body at Al Mafraq Hospital, gave statements against the father.
The grandmother told the court the youngster had been tortured at the hands of her father and stepmother.

More details can be found here!

Armenian Genocide

25 April, 2009

Its estimated that around 1.5 ppl were killed during the Armenian Genocide

Torturing Gays in Iraq

21 April, 2009

I’m not here to defend gays but I’m writing this post to express my disgust of those who appoint them selves as Gods on Earth to spread morality & cleanse people’s sins in the most cruel, inhumane, & barbaric way.

For Arabic speakers, you can check out this. Gays in Iraq are getting kidnapped, severely Tortured,& then shot by religious Militia in Iraq, more specifically by Shiite. Such Iraqi militia gets creative in using horrible beyond the description tools & way that let their victims suffer before death!

It has been reported that they use very strong “ Iranian Glue” to close their butts!! After letting them drink things causing diarrhea & they watch them dying slowly in pain!! They are just teenagers! Human
beings are turning into monsters! Do you think this would be the right way?? Torture & execution are the solutions to fix the world?

I hereby ask: who the hell are you to interfere with people’s religious convections & sexual orientations!!! Why we r still far away from realizing that we NEED FREEDOM in this part of the world. FREEDOM & PEACE!

I think Iraq was much better during Sadam’s era!

To my blog with apology!

15 April, 2009

I feel sympathy towards this blog. It tolerated a lot & has been my window when being depressed or upset. Actually I used blogging mainly as a modern therapeutic methodology when feeling irritated!!! Without doubt, that consequently reflected a certain image of me being so desperate in life! I cant deny that I come across tough moments when I feel myself week, vulnerable, & pessimistic.

This blog witnessed various stages of my life & drastic transitions in my thinking about the world. I hereby express my thanks along with apologies to this webpage!

I would never delete this blog! One day I might go through what I have written & just laugh (I’m doing that already!!)
I really miss my old fellow bloggers who either quit or just disappeared. Have not heard from them since ages. I’m also blamed for being inactive in networking in the blogsphere. Here is some of them:

Abu Faris (Syria),AL Baal Big Fat Ego CF (UAE) Dana (Jordan) DG (UAE) Digital Niqabi (US) Dina (UAE) Eshda3wa (Kuwait) Eva Feras (Jordan) Fouad (UAE) Gardinia (Syria) Hanan (UAE) Jawahir (Oman) John Ford Khaled (Jordan) Local Expat (UAE) Lost & Confused (Oman) Maryam MD (UAE) Mothings Nash (Oman) Out of Me Sabra (Canada) Samer (US) Stained (UAE) Summer (US)

And many many more…….

I’m determined to either revamp the blog inside out or just quit blogging.

April resolution would be a life time resolution hoping to look at life in an optimistic way, to embrace wut Allah has given me, love things/ppl the way they are, accept reality, & seek positive changes in attitude, mentality, & way of life….

I’m looking for a new beginning….. a bright start indeed …today I’m opening a new window
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step & I started with changing the blog color.

Would this feeling last??? I hope so

I Need UR Recommendations!

12 April, 2009

I’m heading to the bookstore today evening

Would love to hear some suggestions on some good tiles.

My mind is in need of something to read. psychology, personal development, diary, business, spiritual topics. Women’s rights, or poetry, all would be fine. I guess I’m in the mood to read something related to psychology esp mood swings & personality disorders! Or most probably something on self-esteem & positive attitude. anything informative & enjoyable !


Any recommendations!??!!!!!!???

28 March, 2009

I’m very depressed as usual. I am thinking of finding a good psychiatrist in town before its too late. I have been suffering from severe sadness for years & I wish if I could put an end to this nightmare

Hehe Tomorrow I’m going on a blind date !!! LOL

10 March, 2009

Following the tremendous failure encountered last week meeting a “horrible 3ares” (yuk i dont want to remember), i decided to go wild!!!

Khalasssssssss I totally gave up on the idea of finding a perfect match or Mr. Right :( so I made up my mind & concluded that waiting for ever is not an option at all.

I’m having a blind date tomorrooooooooooooooooow whohoooooooo…well I don’t know if I can call it a DATE but my friend has been deseperately trying to arrange a couple outings with the friend of her boy friend lol sounds complicated huh?4 of us will hang out & lets see what will happen

If by any chance the situation ended up like the cartoon above I would be still fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ...hope so lol .By the way shall I buy a souvenir or wut :P? and if yes, what shall i buy?

Anyways, today I’ll go shopping & then definitely will go to the saloon to get my nails done :D

I’ll try to ENJOY! Will keep me updated!

Salamzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Happy International Women’s Day!

09 March, 2009

8th March

For every woman out there, I say Happy International Women’s Day!
Continue what you have started & if u haven’t started yet START NOW
Continue your love, contribution, progress, persistence, & most importantly stand up for your rights

With Love,
Arab Lady

Anazer (another) Blab Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

17 February, 2009

shatoora ana ana i took this photo

Since I’m damn bored now waiting for the clock to tick 5:30 PM announcing officially that it’s the end of the daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay….just for your information its still 9:45 AM……..way too early to start counting …….right : (

I’m the type of ppl who gets BORED QUICKLY ……So tell me how was your Valentine? Any good news? Mine sucked & was preceded with severe depression. This valentine passed by without having a date nor a fiancé : (
Too bad huh…somehow my friends managed to convince me to go & hang out….currently I’m not into heavy makeup but booked an appointment & had my make up done by a makeup stylist taba3an in attempt to lift my spirits up!! I wore black in black ! actually I wore one of the shortest skirts I have! I looooooooooove short skirts!!

Anyways, yesterday I stumbled over E while hanging out at Mall of the Emirates. I haven’t seen him since March 2007! He came back to dubai recently but never managed to catch up with each other…..

Anyways

The boyfriend of my Best Friend is driving her crazy ….yesterday we were negotiating about her plans to cheat on him!!! (7aki niswan)Well I advised her to give him some time to fix the situation & if things didn’t get any better GO AHEAD BABE & DATE someone else!!! Hehe what a bad friend … her b/f brought me on my birthday beautiful roses & a gigantic pinky bear whose head couldn’t pass through my room door!! Actually I told her don’t expect men to remain the same creatures the first day u met them! They do change A LOT once they figure out u r in love with them……….
L is getting married in May! Ya rab ya rab plzz plzz I wanna loooooooooooooooooose weight before her wedding ceremony!! Any ideas for lovely useful gifts that would draw a smile on the face of one of the most beautiful brides ever.

By the way I’m still bored…lol
ANYWAY I think I will write another post to kill time as I don’t feel like doing anything…

Blabblaaaah...another day

26 January, 2009

I am so delighted to see my starvation plan working perfectly fine & beyond my expectation. Its almost the 9th day if I’m not mistaken. The resolution is like no chocolate, no coke, no fast food, no fattening stuff, no tea with milk along with drinking a lot of water, almost two litters per day!

Lately I have been so upset about my body & the way I look …I just want my sexy body back. I tried zillions of things....fitness centers, fat burning, appetite reducers but nothing worked since I lacked the determination & will…..food along with infrequent blogging were the only ways I used to manifest & express my depression & emotional status….

Hope I would be able to continue what I have started…. I have too….do I have another option?….for a change I’m thinking of changing my hair style & geting my eyebrow reshaped…looking for a tattoo artist too? If you know someone professional in dubai plz let me know..
I haven’t changed my hair color in 6 months …do you imagine! I just had some highlight three months ago …Actually I have tried various colors blond, red, & black ….now I’m looking for a new color…probably i might wait for another six months until I finish my masters ….finishing my degree would signal the start of a new chapter in my life so changing my look would be a must then!

Today I talked with my sister …I don’t know what to say but she sounded frustrated & said she doenst want to have anything to do with this family anymore! She had enough of listening to our problems….

I wish if you could know how much I love you my beloved sister ….sometimes I feel I love her more than my mother …she is my supporting back…I could never imagine my life without her ….she never let me down….was by my side since ever….i just love u more than anything in life…

Daaaaaaaah I’m sick of myself being tooooo emotional ………isn’t the right time to toughen my heart & get over my weaknesses

A good question!

I got to start studying ….

22 January, 2009

This semester I got some heavy subjects & honestly im afraid to screw up in Retail marketing Management!
I have got two projects & plenty of assignments for this damn course as if we are not full time employeeeeeeeeeees! For god’s sake we are not working for the government sector!! We are not that spoiled …..
Whats the hell! are we studying at Harvard….
For the individual project onlyyy, he wants secondary data, 5 interviews with retailers & 6 observational Examples! Get a life!! Who would have the time to do all of that!!

I feel sorry for my money wasted in doing my masters here….i could have studied at AUC or AUD without the imaginary figure we pay each semester….6 months & 9 days to go …..lately I have been nagging , whining, complaining a lot …right?
: )

I won't wish my self a peaceful weekend this time…an average one would be ok !!

Peace

If your religion does not change you, change your religion

21 January, 2009

**** If your religion does not change you, change your religion****

An inspiring quote I came across yesterday….its by Elbert Hubbard..
I have been thinking a lot about this sentence ….my sister threw some comments last night when she said you are not in need of us…nor do we …but remember that one day you will be asked about your deeds!!

Shall women compromise in the name of religion?
Shall I surrender submit ….accept the current situation & tolerate more shit because allah will punish me if I wanna go against the current flow!!! So surprising that she wants me to experience what she has gone through! Advocates of misery!

I’m just asking when can religion become a burden on Mankind!! So would you change your religion if it didn’t change you!