21 June, 2006


I’m bored to death…depressed…feel like doing nothing…even talking with people or answering any phone call…..not in the mood to go out either…its hot like hell out there especially in the morning…I feel like taking tablets to sleep for three months….it has been around two months since I finished my exams…I really wanna find a job but don’t want to work at the same time ….am I crazy …I really hate my laziness….hate this attitude…. Even my mom ..i can’t get along with her….she can’t understand me…….last night I donno what happened with me I couldn’t sleep well…..

Even the guy I met last week…I don’t reply to his calls…I really feel sorry for him…what shall I tell him …I don’t feel like talking to you without any apparent reason?!!!! He would think that I am a big loser and moody …….
Another problem is that I am trying to reduce my weight ..but really I can’t …I am trying to resist………

Oh God plz I hate myself when I am in a bad mood………… what’s going on? why don’t I feel myself young, fresh, and energetic? Sometimes I feel that I don’t know what I want in life….or maybe it’s the accumulation of frustration that I had in the past years
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6 comments:

TwinTopaz said...

i srtongly suggest that find some work..i know when u finish studies a sudden feeling of emptiness gets u..that u do not have any reason to live!!

u cannot find full time job do a part time one..and to start with develop a 1 page CV and get your self registered with all the placement agencies..(sorry..if u done this already!!)

cheer up lady..

and please ignore that guy..

(ahem..i do not want any competition!!)

;)

S!lent.Sp!r!t said...

hey honey,

its good that you are writing things down as it releases alot of pressure .. but remember .. distanting yourself is no good even though deep down you feel like not being with anyone or talking .. but the effective way of getting our of this phase .. is to be around those you love .. go out, find a job, ... don't just isolate urself ...

It is ok to be lost, not to want to talk to ppl... bes don't ignore them .. tell them ur in a bad mood or whatever ... be honest .. and they'll understand and try to help ..

Best wishes and hey .. KEEP SMILING

Mise said...

If you're like me ..your mood matches the weather ... I'm in a cool place now...and I feel great ...I'll be back to the heat and humididty next week and it's so oppressive that it'll wring me out too ... as silent.spirit says ..try to rise above it ... do things you like and plenty of A/C ;-D

ArabLady said...

will I’ll try my best :D….every time I say to myself ok lets get over my moodiness and start looking at life in a positive way ….anyway thx 4 passying by and really appreciate ur advices…
mwaaaaaaaaaaah

I know this is a bit late..but hopefully you are in a better mood...
blues are not uncommon...
Do what feels right...take your time and do what you enjoy for a while...

ArabLady said...

thx L&H this stage of my life is so critical as i'm trying to find where i do stand....take care