My silent friend

04 April, 2006


Driving from the university I decided to go to the beach as the weather was cloudy little bit. I chose a quiet spot…actually I couldn’t resist not to be near the water… I always had that secretive relation with the sea… Whenever I wanna escape from human beings, I go to visit my silent friend. It’s color and the sound of its water hitting the rocks I sit on give me the energy to survive. It charges me with power to struggle. What makes the sea unique is that its always there for you, to listen to you ……..

I just grabbed a stone and start drawing on the sand. Strips and matrixes are what my hand drew. Deep lines…but not as deep as my soul wound… I wondered about what these lines might mean in the psychology dictionary….
Anyway ..felt that I want to get closer and closer to my friend so I jumped on the rocks.
i told myself now I can see the whole sea clearer. Wish if I could see my future path as clear as I saw the blueness of the sea.

I saw a plane and wished if it could stop and pick me. It would be a miracle….a miracle that it will never happen,,, but who knows …it might have read my thoughts at that moment but chose to ignore me ... sometimes objects might understand, feel, sense more than human beings!!

I didn’t care where it was going as long as it will take me far away.

Anyhow…I charged myself with wut might keep me strong for coming days so I decided to go home… while going back to my car, a local guy passed in front of me and said: Asalam 3alikno (Peace be upon you)

I was like sorry I won’t fell in that stupid situation again. So I ignored him as if I haven’t heard anything…
The other day while walking in the street a car approached me and the guy driving said:
Mar7aba “Hi”
Me: Ahleen “Hi”
The guy with a suit and tie: Kifik “ How are you!!”
I was like damn it ..i thought that he stopped me to ask me about directions or something as he looked mature (in mid thirties may be) and gentle….i felt that I was really stupid..why did I stop in da middle of the street and gave him attention!
Ya well I though that he would be civilized but ya I was mistaken (as 99.99% of men are not!!! )

Anyway …beside my car was a cute guy smoking alone.,, Sounded that he had something to say to the sea. I felt that we had something in common. Felt that he had a story to tell….

But I just ignored him as I switched on the engine and drove
away………

47 comments:

TwinTopaz said...

i seriously think u are a loner!!!

(plz put angry ikon here)

Lady.. find one friend whom you can share your feelings..someone who has good ears (sorry for being ediot here)

:(

MD said...

twin, different people have different lives and different levels of problems. don't classify them as 'loners' or 'losers'. we have our own way of dealing with issues :)

AL:
i do exactly the same thing! each time i'm depressed, i drive by the beach and sometimes i don't even get out of the car because of those local guys :S i sit in the car...and just stare at the horizon...at the ships...the movement of the water...the swirling of the leaves...and the quiet sand and i wish if i could merge into that peaceful scenery. water really calms my mind.

and as for the locals, ignore. there are crappy people everywhere :)

ArabLady said...

Twin
If you consider those who like to go to the beach alone as loners then this is definitely your personal opinion …anyway thx 4 ur advice …by the way I didn’t ask anybody to read the crappy stuff I write…..i had enough from being judged unfairly……..hope that this doesn’t sound offensive to u twin

Md thx 4 ur lovely comment…it’s the type of comments that make me feel ok

TwinTopaz said...

hey..who is getting offensive here??? i am not!

BTW i too some time drove to beach for some slumber moments :)

i suggest u two to visit sharjah or ajman beaches..they are bit quite and perheps more charming..

and don't worry i will keep visiting ur blog..

MD said...

hehehe i do visit the shj-ajman beach. though, when i used to work in dubai media city, i used to sit by the jumeirah beach for a quiet lunch. all the business-superficial-BS lunches used to drive me up the wall :P

TwinTopaz said...

Good morning AL and MD

05/04/06

ArabLady said...

good morning to u too....
well shj-ajman beach is my best place...hey that means i might c u around :)...my car is Hynadai tocson 2006(black)6..in case u c a lady driving this car near that area ,,,then say hi coz i might be that girl ;)

TwinTopaz said...

Hey..i cannot take this risk..what if another lady has the same car!!

:(

ArabLady said...

mmmmmm u r right but life is all about taking risks :P

MD said...

lollll i'll hola back at ya :D if u see a silver lexus with loud music...thats ME :P

good morning to u topaz :P

MD said...

*holla :P

TwinTopaz said...

actually u both..if u see a grey civic with a guy sleeping in it...plz feel free to say hi

;)

ArabLady said...

shit u r a guy towin !!!!!!!!

lol

md said...

lollll i thought u were a gurl too :$

TwinTopaz said...

:(

actually we are two.. me and my twin..

MD said...

is ur twin a gurl? do both of u use the same account?

TwinTopaz said...

NOPE.he is male and honestly he even does not know i blog ;)

BTW how come u two thought i am a girl???

and a very good mornig to u both

ArabLady said...

hey how r u both ...actually my mood is getting better that's why i am not posting :D...

MD said...

loll...ok twin, are YOU a guy? so both u twins are male?

i dunno u sound 'soft'...like a gurl lollll :P

hala AL, am glad ure better. moronic bloggers can surely cheer us up ;)

TwinTopaz said...

AL...we want more of you...get into depression again...phlezzz

:{

MD..yes i AM a guy and we both are male

Good morning ladies... how was the day off??

MD said...

lolll good to have that clarified. TT, why dont you blog?

holiday was good. why is this thread becoming like a chatroom :D

ArabLady said...

will don't worry i'll get to tht amood soon :D...but i wannna enjoy these two days...Good morning to u both...i spent the holoday at Starbucks working with my friend on that shit project,,,,at t he end of the day every thing got deleted twice...life is tough,,,is n't it :)))))))))

md said...

grrrr that's pissing off. i would have shot someone :@ starbucks in AUS or on bu7aira?

ArabLady said...

i just told her to throw her laptop in any nearby trash bin

ArabLady said...

hey btw ...2omorrow is the global day yalla come and have fun

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ArabLady said...

No in AUS,,,

MD said...

ohh the global day...lol i hate it. i was picking up my sis once and i saw a bunch of weird kids dressed up, acting like theyre so hot. and i just stayed away :P

are u doing anything there? drop me a mail on funky.randomness@yahoo.com

TwinTopaz said...

ahem... i am missing few things here...

Q-1 are u both in American Uni SHJ??? and if not what is AUS...

Q-2 what is global day?? please explain with examples..

both question are complusory..

please illustrate where ever necessary.

MD..sorry i don't blog...actually i do not have any thing to blog about..specially about my work realted issues which unfortunately revolves aroung lipsticks, masscaras, blushes and eye shades...


:D

MD said...

TT...ARENT U A GUY!!!

TwinTopaz said...

MD...yes i am...why u have so many doubts about my gender :(

and can't guys deal in makeup???

(and i am not a salesman in cosmetic shop)

ArabLady said...

Hey man ,,,no we are interested in ur stuff…..mascara, lipstick ,,,blab blah ,,,,if u wana us to try any samples u r welcome,,,, well it sounds that u r working in marketing or something like that ….so yalla waiting 4 ur posts :@,,,,

Nice poem…actually it truly reflects u mood these days….

Well AUS=American uni of Shj….and since u r living in uae….the Global day is s.th similar to wut u c in the Global Village in Dubai…each community shows its culture, clothes, item 4 sale, blab blah….

ArabLady said...

To answer ur Q... no men should not deal in make up ,,,wut is left 4 us then ,,,u wanna compete with us in every and single thing,,,offff life would be better without men ( a big lie :P)
I am kidding btw ;)

TwinTopaz said...

so girlz..how was the global day today...were u two able to meet each other..

was it disappointing ot see each other???..cmon tell us the truth ;)

(i am completely ignoring the makeup thing now )

MD said...

lol TT...i am not answering until u tell me abt the make-up thing :P

TwinTopaz said...

MD..it is not something which will really interest u...only that i work for one French Cosmetic and Perfumes brands in Dubai and so my job involves around cosmetics and perfumes and skincare produts..

now did u guys realll met???

ArabLady said...

Twin I wanna meet u man!! Actually I’m looking 4 a groom…. Hahaha ,,,at least u r not arab lol
MD wut is ur sign :)

TwinTopaz said...

(me blushing to death)

AL..u will be disappointed if u see me..i am short, pot ballied and bald..although some people say i have pretty eyes ;)

and a very good morning to both of u..

ArabLady said...

:( mmmmm welll nono man u r not my type then....lol looking 4 a very tall guy (about 190cm) ;)

TwinTopaz said...

awwwww i am only 14 cm short to your target...

please marry a lamp post!!! It will help u light up your life as well

thank u

:(

MD..we are missing u today..

MD said...

hahahhaha TT, ure insane :P sorry guys, i was busy. was at the education exbtn crap. i have to blog abt it :P

AL: i am aan quarian :)

TwinTopaz said...

Ahem.. i guess AL is busy...looking for suitable lamp posts..

Hellooo..good mornig girls

md said...

lol been a while. howdy make-up man?

TwinTopaz said...

oh phleezz..me no make up man..plz call me macho man ;)

work is so slow...most of the office is off for Easter...only muslims are in!!

sheer stupidty...what if MD (not u) announced holiday for all!!!

md said...

im depressed as hell tonight. too depressed to blog.

ArabLady said...

good morning to u MD and twin
MD hey wut's wronge with u ...why depressed sweet heart ? hope every thing is going ok

hey make up man how r u today :D

i am sooo busy with my projects ,,,yala wish the best

cheers

S!lent.Sp!r!t said...

IT seems like a chat forum:P