28 December, 2009



After a very strong emotional shock, here I'm still alive & breathing

I have heard about bastards' stories in life but I couldn’t imagine that I could fall a victim of any one of them. Despite being very protective serious & challenging, he managed to fool me & fool my family.

Im still wondering if he got paid to do wut he did. Or it was a dare? Wallahi it could be. My brain couldn’t stop thinking…I'm suffering from sleep disorder & my eye blood pressure hurts me like hell.

My heart is really broken. I don’t deserve to experience the horrible trap I've fallen in. The worst part I still couldn’t comprehend the MOTIVES behind his movie. Fake name, fake nationality, fake profession, fake details!!!! Every thing is fake… months, hours, minutes, seconds were full of lies. His family was fake, his residence was fake!!! His romance & love were fake!! It was a very dirty game with a well-planned scenario. No body could ever play such an illusional personality unless he has something in mind.

I can no longer trust people… I can no longer trust men

Fear & insecurity conquered my body & soul…waiting for a new sunrise to uncover my sadness…asking God to strengthen my patience & bless me with Oblivion

Still much more to learn the ward way …..will I ever see the light at the end of the tunnel ? will I ever unfold this page?

6 comments:

johnorford said...

i am so sorry to hear this... ppl like that r so god damn infuriating!

Arab Lady said...

john
im welcoming myself to the real world...
im just wondering if its worth it ...

Anonymous said...

Hi Arab Lady, I've read all ur posts & Ive been checking for new posts for months, almost every day before I fall asleep...

I'm really sorry to hear what uve been through... There is a lot to learn from this life... Good luck & keep posting.

-R

johnorford said...

honestly - dubai doesn't read like the real world somehow...

come over to nyc missus! - get another version of reality : ))

Dubai Guy said...

You will survive, I am sure about that. There is always light at the end of the tunnel.

Destiny said...

Hey Arab Lady,

read few of ur post, this one made me sad,and i know you have posted it 2 years ago but some pains takes time to heal, and i hope it already did :).

Like ur posts and looking forward to the next one :).